had been quite sick, yet still not having enuf rest, thinking abt the stuff i need to complete. feeling a bit stressed after all.

actually wanna say that this whole entry is dedicated to the three person whom i shuang3 yue1 that day on 27may, but haiz. i don't know... i'm really losing track of time, and i keep thinking i still got lots of it, thinking every day is still as free as another and i'm just passing days like there's always a tomorrow.

so when yeokie asked me when i'm free, i actually managed to answer "next friday lor" in a very "shuang3 kuai4" manner, totally forgetting an important event which i need to attend: jeremy's last performance concert as an SAF Central Band member. then two days later, i was asked by keith to join his 21st birthday party. i felt so weird, knowing the party clashed with the jc outing. worst of all, i need to find out that the concert was on 27th may on the prev saturday.

three events, one night. how? somemore the date of the jc outing was suggested by me. but then, jeremy had reserved tix for us long ago, and if i don't go, i feel like i've wasted his efforts. then keith, argh, how? how? he's one of the reasons i managed to survive TCHS 4L without turning into a hypocritic ah beng like somebody with the initials same as kokwee.

i tot of going to all three events, but dun noe if i could make it. and due to the feeling of obligation, i decided to not go for the jc class outing. haiz. so sorry! this is really all my fault. but i really could not remember dates anymore. the only date really in my mind now is my own ORD date which i'm counting down very faithfully since one month ago. yet, i've lost concept of days (as in monday, tuesday, wednesday, etc.) and everyday felt like a sunday.

i felt that my lifestyle is kind of sucky. unhealthy too. and my time-planning for the next half a year is, i guess, gonna be more of a hectic. NTU, hall-life, Skyblue, AI band & Kim Seng band. i feel like giving up on certain activities.

stupid me have to make myself occupied all the time. perhaps i don't want to tink about certain stuff and i am (and will always) look forward to meeting my frens (that's why i try to tink of dates that are pretty close to a current date, not like one month later.)

To yi, mu, yeokie: i'm really really sorry! i promised! next three outings, i'm gonna plan kay? no matter how difficult. sorry that this had to happen, and there's actually no one else to blame except for myself, so i could not really give a satisfactory explanation. so sorry! :(

*marking-down-dates-on-my-calendar*,
Johnzzon