Life goes on as usual, living in my double-storey flat in Bukit Panjang and going to my (national service) workplace at Nee Soon Camp as a bandsman of the SAF Band. sure, there were a few things happening every now and then, but nothin' much to excite me tho. those events were sort of like *poof* it happened and *poof* i forgot.

occasionally i wud come online to chat wif my online frens (cos they were always so weirdly interested in my boring life), and they wud ask me the usual cliche question "so how's your day?" i wud normally jus go "nothin' much... still the same days i guess..." (note the abundant use of "...") and i wud pause for a while b4 i go "den again... *blah blah blah*...) (note the abundant use of "..." once again). pretty scary how i tend to forget details of my days. guess it's the reason why i don't blog so often anymore. perhaps it's due to the reason that i might find myself writing the same old things over and over again. haha~

so, wut happened to me for this past one week. let me try very hard to recap the basic events.

*At Work (ie, NS)*

oh wells, outside frens of mine will know i like to refer to my NS life as work. "heys, i need to go work tomolo one leh~" "oei, u tink i dun need to work one issit?" "i hate my work recently~" ya ya, all the deh deh stuff i wud do.

went back to Pulau Tekong once again recently for the ASLC graduation parade: once on friday morning for the rehearsal and once yesterday morning for the actual parade. i tink i've gotten too used to all the long parades that i actually felt this parade was rather easy. saw Aw Songyu, he's one of the graduates. pretty weird to see him since we havent seen each other for like *count* 4 years? haha. Jianming and Monkey How Zhiyuan was there too. Still the same old word: "weird".

*Career*

got an sms three nights ago from Music Express 10 asking for my email address. as i read further, i realised it was the sms i've been waiting for for the past 8 years. this company is going to offer me a song-writing contract. woah~ *cheer* i was pretty shocked when i first received this sms, and a lot of things were going thru my mind and i was freaking out for a moment there (i tot it was a dream, and i was scared to wake up). but then i realised, i din wan to sign to this company. it wasn't what i want now as a priorty. i'm under the guidance of another local composer and i'm wishing to sign on to his publishing company instead. *argh* it's like, i'm trying to get to this destination of mine, and now there are two trains leaving for that destination. the first one is leaving soon, but i dun noe how's the condition of the train. the second one is leaving later, but i dun noe when, but i know most of the details of the package. it's just the uneasy feeling when u're going to purposely miss the first train.

i'm an impatient person, but i cannot let my impatience take over me this time round.

*Love*

for one week, i've been having a hearty chat wif my online fren Kel. the prob is, whenever i got online, it was always my depression period of time of the night (circa 11pm to 1am). and he's been trying very hard to dig out my love life. in the end, he successfully churned out quite a lot of information from me and allowed me to recall all the sad details of my love life.

and he said "it's been four years, why hadn't u give up on her yet?"

i was quite shocked. i din know how to say. cos i always tot i've successfully left her out in my life. but after wut he said, i realised i din. luckily i managed to hold back all the emotions and laughed about it.

but i tink i cudnt do it forever.

i always teared last night when my frens were talking abt love and relationships. i dun tink i can do this any longer. if only i have a spouse now... sighz...

*Friends*

luckily, i guess, i still hav very good frens around me, who are always there. i'm still allowing myself to be dependent on my frens, and i'm jus happily enjoying their accompaniment. i'm very happy to be meeting them every now and then for activities that we enjoyed.

is friendship important part of my life? i can confidently say yes. *smilez* oh wells, such cliche endings. haha. but i love all of ya~ *hugz*

muahaha~,
Johnzzon

 

 

was checking my email and one person from one of my yahoo! groups sent this.

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. 2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. 5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around. 12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you. 13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

The instructions given in the email: Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

The conclusion at the end: Being happy is the priority of living. If u wanna be sad, be sad for something thats worth it.

*smilez*,
Johnzzon

 

i need to go back to camp later to stay in!! wa lao, finally it's one of those days that i really wanna stay at home and i'm required to go back to camp to stay in becoz tomolo we hv some shitty rehearsal. urgh~

a lot of things happened for the past few days. mm, normally that statement is accompanied by a sighz or urgh~, but today it's kinda like a yea! for me. so eventful and so fulfilling. haha. learnt a lot of things, tried a lot of stuff, met a lot of new frens, felt frens were all there around me and i'm jus so soaked in the happy atmosphere. haha!

*smiling*,
Johnzzon

 

had ktv with class in the morning from 11am to 3pm. it was a fulfilling session wif me belting my heart out at all the songs. haha. managed to reach those high notes, esp in JJ's songs. thank you thank you~~

went kino to get my books. Liang Wen Fu's "Xie Yi Shou Ge Gei Ni" and Dan Brown's "Da Vinci Code".

had coffee at CCE at paragon, den had lunch at KFC at cine (on my insisting cos i got coupons. *smile*)

it was an eventful, but somehow, felt a bit weird, as if i wasnt that close to some of the ppl in the class anymore, esp ppl like ken, jy, pei pei. sighz. perhaps i havent really got the chance to meet them. kinda sad.

had a very heartfelt chat with kelvin(nL) last night. i really dun wan to tink too much, but can i?

*thoughtful*,
Johnzzon

 

on a mission today (as referred to by Y). was very determined to take photographs of the fireworks at the Fullerton. so, at 4 something, i slowly made my way down to city hall, after knowing that qi had flied my aeroplane. (if not, i wud hv reached long ago)

all the macdonalds, burger king, etc, were all packed with ppl. so, instead of buying fast food, went to seven-eleven and bought quite a lot of chocolates to fill myself up. den, i made my way to the bridge (linking fullerton to esplanade) and managed to secure quite a good place. that's at 6:30pm. den i started chatting wif another photographer standing beside me and he taught me how to set up my camera to take pictures of the fireworks. (in the end, i cudnt use the settings cos the camera had a 10 second delay after every photo taken. too long liao. so i set back to auto mode which had only a second delay)

during the 2 hrs wait, took a lot of weird pictures which i wud label as pretentious artistic (*yet again* keke).



at 8:30pm, the fireworks display started after two identical announcements abt sponsers and the chereographer. ~weird~



after the fireworks, all the ppl on the bridge tried to leave, and there was this huge human traffic jam. gosh~ that's when ppl start to show their selfish side. *irritated* anyway, as i made my way to chinatown to take my bus (less ppl taking the bus from there), took a lot of (yes, i'm gonna use the term again) pretentiously artistic pictures again. haha~ had fun taking these kind of photos. keke. jus need to open my eyes and look out for things to take. almost wanted to take pictures of every lamp post, but heck, no life left in my battery. keke. arent u glad? muahaha~



snapping-happily,
Johnzzon

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zhibin's (my bro-in-law) camera is still wif moi, so i wanted to take as much pictures as i can when i can still do so. haha, dun noe when i'll get my own camera. today i jus took a lot of useless pretentiously artistic pics. haha. now waiting for my pics to upload and so i'm blogging first.

i slacked the whole morning and din feel like moving once i sat down in front of my comp. was listening to the Full Metal Alchemist soundtracks i downloaded. muahaha~ they're so nice! full orchestra playing the score! woah~ anyway, i refused to move my butt until 1pm when i finally decided to hav my lunch and leave house after that for kim seng.

in the end, reached kim seng at 2:30pm, carrying a lot of scores with me. kinda tired. then, *horror horror* the band room's lights were not on and the doors were locked. *gasp* "dun tell me there aren't any practices today?!" i called lawrence and he told me there's still practice (*phew*) and the practice was at 3:30pm. huh? oh my, these top ppl were getting complacent wif their timings oso huh? haha. normally i reached at 1pm they wud be there liao. oh well, i went to the hawker behind the cc to hav a cup of tea while waiting for time to pass and shun bian to sit down oso.



and so band prac started at 4pm. sonny was really drilling us. practised (really practised very hard) Celestial Celebration, Alleluia! Laudamus Te and Armenian Dances Part I. damn tired halfway thru. hav to hold the notes to their full values, and so was using my diaphgram to its full power (esp in A!LT) my face was damn red after all the exertion. *panting*

| My Kim Seng Eupho | Kim Seng Concert Posters || Sonny | Lawrence | the sleepy band |

went to dinner wif they all after sonny insisting i shd go. so, ok la, they're going to hav chicken rice at a stall behind raffles hotel. quite cool~ never know there's such a stall... haha, they always know all the good places to eat, so, i shall tag along too! haha...

the place quite cool, kinda reminded me of some malaysian food shophouse(esp in kedah or ipoh). haha. enjoyed the atmosphere (with all the talking and shouting all over the place) altho the chicken rice wasn't the best that i've ever eaten. ;)

| buildings opposite the shophouse | inside the shophouse | the ever-so-cute Kiyomi | the traditional counter || Me, Lawrence and Amy | George, Sonny and Me || Now U C My Luohan Longan Drink | Now U C The Chicken | Now U C The Vegies | And Now You DON'T! |

left the group of them (they went to eat niu2 nai3 dun4 dan4) as i strolled around the area. initially wanted to go to the nus carnival, but din know where exactly it was, so in the end, it became a phototaking session for me. so the pretentiously artistic me carried my digi around the place and took pictures of wutever i found interesting to take. haha. tink i looked weird.



no concrete plans for tomolo, except meeting ZQ to watch fireworks at night. see how lor... haha... perhaps in the end i'll jus slack thru the whole morning again, altho i do wish to go tanning. haha.

kinda-tired,
johnzzon

 

3 hours have past since my prev post. oh my god, hav i really stoned that long?

had been downloading all the songs from Full Metal Alchemist soundtracks from a particular website. over 200 mb of songs, woah~ but taking a long time. the 136 mb file cudnt copy to my music drive, so i had to re-download all over again. *sian*

was planning to do my demos, 5 songs now. *stress* dun noe wut to do wif them. had to do them slowly i guess.

my plans for tomolo, hoping to go down to suntec in the noon time and see if they're playing my arranged song. haha~ *bhb* but really hope they like the arrangement and hope the original composer doesnt kill me or something. afternoon, finalli going down to kimseng again after missing two pracs. gonna bring down a lot of scores this time round for them to try. *hopeful*

*argh* sian la~ i hate to not be doing something at this unearthly hour of the night, especially when i'm forcing myself awake to do so. felt like i'm wasting my night away if i go and sleep la~ finally got a chance to sleep late, shd be sleeping late ma. now, i jus feel i'm wasting my life away. nobody's online to chat wif oso. And the downloading of the files is freaking slow~~ urgh... damn it. shall go and sleep, dun care liao... perhaps i'll lie on my bed and finish re-reading my Dan Detective School comics or Full Metal Alchemist comics series once again. haha~ wut a life~!



johnzzon

 

mmm, shall start off with a recap of the morning first.

morning fall in 8am, the usual timing. got to sit in terence's new car, woah, nice. i always like the smell of the inside of a new car. haha. getting very (really very) inspired to go learn driving now. damn~ why r ppl arnd me tempting me to do so recently? urgh~ even dom is getting his license in 4 months time. *green with envy*

did a useless full band this morning, practising the "Dead March from SAUL". used to be quite superstitious abt photocopying this score, after learning that it's a classical song written by Handel, damn it~ i felt damn stupid. and i jus photocopied the score for the band like nobody's business. haha... even junyu was practising singing the Last Post loudly. haha. (oh, for those who dun know, we're preparing for a funeral this afternoon, and "Dead March from Saul" is a funeral march, and "Last Post" is the funeral bugle call.)

the band went off to the new Mandai crematorium, but since i got my Medical Appointment fixed this afternoon, and staff maswan allowed me to go off (with a very suaning "chao-geng" look on his face), so i stayed in the library and looking for scores. in the end, i kooped "Alleluia Laudamus Te!" (for Sonny) and "Suite of Old American Dances". haha~ felt damn shiok as i carried the scores back to bunk. *scores fetish*

~//~
left Nee Soon Camp at 1320, without a single slightest idea how to get to Alexandra Hospital smoothly. but, as always, lady luck is always on my side when i travel. initially, i decided to take 980 to bugis and transfer to the train to commonwealth, but as i dropped off at Singapore Financial House (at Bugis) the bus stop at another corner had three buses which i cud take to AH. haha. in the end, i reached AH 20 min before my scheduled timing. (i was hoping to reach on the dot. keke.)

i waited for 10 min and i was asked to go the X-Ray department. woah, my first X-ray. i was asked to roll up my pants to expose my right knee, and den had to place myself in positions totally unnatural for human body. there's a position which looked like me peeing like a dog, raising my left leg to avoid blocking the camera. *shake head* and the nurse was a female, argh~ damn paiseh~

after the X-ray, i went back with the X-ray photos to the doctor. as usual, the doc asked me to lie down and he started playing around with my right leg, hoping to find the prob. but i jus felt my right leg being quite numb. juz when he wanted to give up, we both felt a "klark" suddenly. he was like "oh~ so this is ur prob rite?" and i went "er, yar, shd be... haha..." he gave me an appointment 2 weeks later and asked me to reconfirm the location of the pain. den if serious, he might need to downgrade me permanently. (dun noe if i shd be happy... cos the way he explained the pain made my situation sounded pretty scary)

but, nevertheless, this is my first medical appointment. nothing as interesting as how ZQ put it. wut "they will inject mercury into ur blood stream" or "poke a ultra long needle into ur leg" or scary stuff. haha. ok. so, this is my first medical appointment. 2 more weeks later will be going back there. *chao geng* muahaha~

Johnzzon

 

《也是情深》

虽然我们相识无言中
彼此情谊不深
心灵却相通
犹记得我们曾说过
我们誓愿尽责
为学院学生发出光和热

黄城虽然已不复留存
我们却不在乎
不渝是精神
只要我们的心联系
从此不在隔分
难道我们就不能往前奔

过去的就让它辗转过去
不要一味回顾
收拾起我们破碎的心情
不再停下脚步
让我们试着开拓新旅程
把华初灿烂的光芒
照亮路上无数次的黑暗

纵然迎面还有大风浪
我们不再畏惧
风雨的阻挡
生命对你和我来说
已不是一场梦
生活的迈进一刻不放松

过去的就让它辗转过去
不要一味回顾
收拾起我们破碎的心情
不再停下脚步
让我们试着开拓新旅程
把华初灿烂的光芒
照亮路上无数次的黑暗


This picture is produced by joining up 6 pictures. It may make the central plaza look deserted, but that's due to the fact i have to delete away quite a number of ppl to link up the pictures nicely. Hwa Chong JC, thank you for all the wonders i've experienced that you gave me.