had been having talks wif my frens nowadays, and sometimes because of my narrating, i actually splurge out point of views which had never occurred in my mind before.

one such example. i actually mentioned that a fren thinks he's very matured thinking and so does not allow other ppl's ideas or points of view into his life. i wanted to find a reason, and i actually said this. "perhaps neighbourhood jc students think they're more matured thinking than those top-five jc students, cos they might have the idea that they have gone thru more failures in life than them." i never thought abt this before, and this idea has since intrigued me. is it true? is that wut most ppl think? i hate to think of it that way, cos i'm sure i've experienced quite a deal which many ppl have yet to go thru at this point of time (argh, dun really want to dwell in that area).

things seem to have taken a slight turn towards a brighter side, but i have this feeling we're just acting. hopefully everything will resolve itself.

looking forward to new beginnings, cos it's a new year. perhaps it's a chance to dig out the past and place it in front of me, and question myself how true to myself and to my friends am i. sure, there are things that happened one year ago that still bugged me till now, but has the situation become better or worse?

always look on the brighter side of life. easily said, yet hard to be done. how many times do we actually scrutinize things rather than look at it's more beautiful side? nothing's ever perfect in the world, i've come to realise.

met shengyong on the way home today, really glad that we can still chat wif each other despite leading two very different lifes now. but, we both agree, perhaps these two and a half years are not totally wasted despite us complaining almost every single day how meaningless these years have been. i've finally found time to do stuff that i've always complained i never had the time to do, and shengyong has finally found the true meaning behind the term 'slacking'. haha. perhaps it's nice to stop and having a breather once in a while.

sis gave me my birthday present half a year in advance - "The Chronicles of Narnia", the series of books which i hoped my frens will get for me for b-day this year but apparently nobody got the hint. haha~ lots of thanks to my sis for getting me this series of books (all 7!!)!!

my room is finally in order, altho i found it much more packed than before due to the new and wide L-shaped desks. guess i'll get used to it.

a new year, perhaps a new list of resolutions awaits?

contemplating,
Johnzzon