When you laugh, do u really mean you're being happy? or r you just trying to hide the fact that you're sad? so wut if you're sad? people don't need to care about you, do you know that? of coz you do. but you're afraid of ppl assuming. 1 + 1 does not equals to two. sure, you're frightened. you're frightened of the fact that ppl misjudge you incorrectly. you're frightened of the fact that ppl will talk abt bad moments abt you even if u do not mean it. you're frightened of the fact that you're simply not judged as the person you r.

wut happened to those moments when you simply laugh because of the joy in your heart, in your soul, in your mind? wut happened to those days when you don't hav to tink abt wut u say becoz you trust your frens to know who u really r? are all your frens now merely just acquaintances? when hv u become so emotional over matters? why does a single song of the pass haunt you so much that you can tear so easily? how can the attitudes of a few ppl towards you cause your mood to change within a few seconds? why r u so affected by ppl around u?

you feel like your whole life is in a mess now. some ppl know your secrets, some ppl don't. you don't trust those who know those who know your secrets. you don't hav to bring it up now and den, but sometimes you just have to coz you don't feel secure, do you? you had to resort to means and methods. you kept telling other ppl intricate and unnecessary details of your life, hoping they wud know tink they know who you r and not find out further. yet, becoz of this, u tink ppl find you talkative and noisy. but, you can only ask yourself, is this merely my own assumption or is it true?

you wan to get into a relationship. you hav a target. wut's stopping u? the mere excuse of not having the correct timing is losing its power. when r u jus gonna go ahead and speak your mind? or is it because you are afraid of something yet again? r u afraid you're jus making use of the gal to forget the other stuff in your life? r u afraid that you're not really in love wif the gal?

why r u so afraid? why? u were never like this before. u were once that guy that heck care whatever advices ppl gave u. u were once that guy that speaks his mind freely and makes lame jokes for no reason wutsoever. u were once that guy that dares to do wutever plans he has.

"believe who u r" is always the advice ppl give u. do you know who u r in the first place? u did. do u?

posing-questions,
Johnzzon