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Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Others yearn for freedom, but I only hope for some time alone
Weird title for a post huh?
Well, I don't know... I've been complaining to closed ones about my unreasoned depression. It's sad that I can't contact those I wish to speak to, but I just have to tell myself I managed to get the other 50% of them. hullo guys, please check your handphone if it's proper? I can't even get a proper ringtone from some of you.
That aside... like I said, the depression came from nowhere. I tried to find reasons, I really did, but most of them were so trivial I feel like slapping myself in the face and ask myself to wake up. Is it a post-exam syndrome? Is it the sudden release from tension? Or is it the fact that I get too bothered by having nowhere to run to?
But I am running away. I'm running away for a while. Or rather, flying away. Heys, some of u may have already received my personal calls (that's why the phone calls) to tell u abt my trip, others, well, I just don't feel like telling u.
My first time on a plane trip overseas without an authoritarian figure (ie, parents or teachers or someone to yap at me).
Three months, lots of things to settle, before I launch myself into another semester of hectic lifestyle.
Why aren't some of you allowing me to call you just to catch up? Three months is all I got.
It sounds like I'm passing away or something, but it does feel like that to me. It feels like a suicide, a breakaway from the real world, when school term starts. And by then, if u can't contact me, will u blame me again?
I'm running away. And I need it. And I need to say goodbye.
*an-absurd-little-bird-is-popping-out-to-say-cuckoo*,
Johnzzon
I'm amazed... you actually highlight this part. so clever. Ok, u lucky ones, i'll tell u about my trip. I'm flying off to Taiwan from 14th to 22nd may, that's a 9 day trip. Will be going with yeok (my jc fren) and her frens. If you want a gift, give me a personal call on the handphone. I'm not entertaining smses. Ha! I'm expecting NO ONE to call me anyway. U bunch of mei liang xins, never reply to any of this shit i'm posting on my blog one.
Well, I don't know... I've been complaining to closed ones about my unreasoned depression. It's sad that I can't contact those I wish to speak to, but I just have to tell myself I managed to get the other 50% of them. hullo guys, please check your handphone if it's proper? I can't even get a proper ringtone from some of you.
That aside... like I said, the depression came from nowhere. I tried to find reasons, I really did, but most of them were so trivial I feel like slapping myself in the face and ask myself to wake up. Is it a post-exam syndrome? Is it the sudden release from tension? Or is it the fact that I get too bothered by having nowhere to run to?
But I am running away. I'm running away for a while. Or rather, flying away. Heys, some of u may have already received my personal calls (that's why the phone calls) to tell u abt my trip, others, well, I just don't feel like telling u.
My first time on a plane trip overseas without an authoritarian figure (ie, parents or teachers or someone to yap at me).
Three months, lots of things to settle, before I launch myself into another semester of hectic lifestyle.
Why aren't some of you allowing me to call you just to catch up? Three months is all I got.
It sounds like I'm passing away or something, but it does feel like that to me. It feels like a suicide, a breakaway from the real world, when school term starts. And by then, if u can't contact me, will u blame me again?
I'm running away. And I need it. And I need to say goodbye.
*an-absurd-little-bird-is-popping-out-to-say-cuckoo*,
Johnzzon
I'm amazed... you actually highlight this part. so clever. Ok, u lucky ones, i'll tell u about my trip. I'm flying off to Taiwan from 14th to 22nd may, that's a 9 day trip. Will be going with yeok (my jc fren) and her frens. If you want a gift, give me a personal call on the handphone. I'm not entertaining smses. Ha! I'm expecting NO ONE to call me anyway. U bunch of mei liang xins, never reply to any of this shit i'm posting on my blog one.
