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Thursday, August 25, 2005
The Day
the day had been moody. the sky is overcast, and the weather's humid. haiz, i don't even want to go back to hall at the moment. where am i now? in SCI's comp lab, dun noe doing wut oso.
sent zhengyi off early this morning. it was quite a chaotic and hectic journey, waking up at 4am, rushed to SCI to meet yeokie at 5am, tried to guide the taxi who got lost in NTU, rushing down to sengkang to pick mu up by 6am, reaching changi airpot terminal 2 and tried to locate zhengyi who didn't know three of us were there.
being the stupid me, i know i'll do something, but i resisted so terribly. us singing "Fly Away" to him is just so... well... i don't know how to describe that feeling. it's like, both of us like the song (he was the one who introduced me this song back in our j2 times), and suddenly this song was so fitting for the occasion. it was surreal, and sad at the same time.
as we watched yi walk thru the immigration counters, a feeling of emptiness filled me. four of us, down to three. it felt incomplete, just like losing one of ur limbs, paralysed. for a moment, i even felt our friendship beginning to fall apart, just like the kind of depression a person sinks into when he first realises he loses one of his limbs. yes, i was that frightened.
the trip back to NTU, fortunately, wasn't that solemn. we tried chatting on the taxi, but no one really mentioned yi. that is until mu received the sms yi sent on the plane. "Hey shuai ge and mei nvs! I was really pleasantly surprised to see you chaps appear. Take care ok! I'll be back real soon. I'll be praying every step of e way too."
"even tho yi seems so jian1 qiang2 sometimes, but he has a soft side too." and i agree.
the world didn't stop. i was thrown back into the world immediately, not even allowing me to contemplate or recall the memories. i guess that's why i'm here, allowing myself some time and some words to express myself, to be myself, to free myself.
yi, the three of us will definitely miss you. "Zai4 chong2 feng2 zhi1 ji4, rang4 wo3 men2 de hui2 yi4, xiang4 yuan2 cao3 ji4 xu4 de sheng1 qi3"...
sent zhengyi off early this morning. it was quite a chaotic and hectic journey, waking up at 4am, rushed to SCI to meet yeokie at 5am, tried to guide the taxi who got lost in NTU, rushing down to sengkang to pick mu up by 6am, reaching changi airpot terminal 2 and tried to locate zhengyi who didn't know three of us were there.
being the stupid me, i know i'll do something, but i resisted so terribly. us singing "Fly Away" to him is just so... well... i don't know how to describe that feeling. it's like, both of us like the song (he was the one who introduced me this song back in our j2 times), and suddenly this song was so fitting for the occasion. it was surreal, and sad at the same time.
as we watched yi walk thru the immigration counters, a feeling of emptiness filled me. four of us, down to three. it felt incomplete, just like losing one of ur limbs, paralysed. for a moment, i even felt our friendship beginning to fall apart, just like the kind of depression a person sinks into when he first realises he loses one of his limbs. yes, i was that frightened.
the trip back to NTU, fortunately, wasn't that solemn. we tried chatting on the taxi, but no one really mentioned yi. that is until mu received the sms yi sent on the plane. "Hey shuai ge and mei nvs! I was really pleasantly surprised to see you chaps appear. Take care ok! I'll be back real soon. I'll be praying every step of e way too."
"even tho yi seems so jian1 qiang2 sometimes, but he has a soft side too." and i agree.
the world didn't stop. i was thrown back into the world immediately, not even allowing me to contemplate or recall the memories. i guess that's why i'm here, allowing myself some time and some words to express myself, to be myself, to free myself.
yi, the three of us will definitely miss you. "Zai4 chong2 feng2 zhi1 ji4, rang4 wo3 men2 de hui2 yi4, xiang4 yuan2 cao3 ji4 xu4 de sheng1 qi3"...
Zhang Zhengyong
01S21
