This week had been long, extremely long actually.

I'm not the kind of person who likes to campaign and rally and stuff, and when I have to do it due to the elections, well, I just decided to go crazy and do something that normally I don't get a chance to do, like inviting people to doodle on my picture on my campaign posters.

People have been telling me not to do it. "It's not serious. As a president, you should have that presence that people sort of see up to." Well, actually, frankly speaking, that's what I'm damn afraid of.

I don't want to be someone I am not, definitely not a person who likes to pressure people with my stature, with my... "shen1 fen4", if you get what I mean. those who really know me know I don't like to talk about who I am and what I do outside, because I don't want to be seen as this person that people cannot approach.

Like joanne peh. Heck, I feel afraid of approaching her, even tho i've chit-chatted wif her a couple of times (literally, two times only!).

Ok, before I go into a detenber digression, I would want to say that I hope people see that this Johnson that ppl see after the elections is still the same old wacky Johnson everyone knows.

Before I go any further, Thank you people! I would not be where I am without you all. Thank you for everything, even a little "heys, I'll vote for you" anytime during the week has been comforting, altho I must say each one of them does add a bit of pressure on myself. How well will I do? Will this course of one year turn out fine?

Anyway, I hadn't been able to thank everybody properly, and I don't know if i get the chance. Friday night had been disatrous, meeting all the rest of the presidents, sitting inside the Union room, voting for the next Student Union ex-co. I will say that we as presidents can't do much for deciding who will be going into the next ex-co since it's still a pretty much protected environment (protected as in the prev exco is there to protect their successors). i'm not saying it's bad, cos it's only natural, but I'm juz surprised to see a big fuss being kicked up. the meeting lasted from 8pm to 5:30am, a record breaking 9.5 hours. by the end, I'm tired and everything, and I felt that these people were so worked up by things that may not even affect the rest of their lives. Does corporate people give a shit about you being the vice-president of the student union when you're 35 yo? sure, it looks good on the resume, but if you didn't get in becos of you're being viewed as the potential (but becos the prev exco likes you) not much of a diff right?

why am i saying this? cos i'm sure i will not be saying anything to much of my frens that i befriend in the future. not that I'm not proud of it, juz that, hey, i like to tink that my frens befriend me becos of who i am, and not what i used to be. you get what I mean?

anyway, this (sat) morning had been bad. the first thing i got in the morning was an sms from dad. something happened again in my family. somehow, I'm glad i din go apply for exchange, VERY glad actually. but for 2 whole hours in the morning, i almost called dunstan and said i hav to drop the role. i needed 2 whole hours to calm myself down.

yup, this week has been long, extremely long. Thank you everyone, for your support and encouragement, for if not, I will not be where I am now. Let me say this before I will not say it anymore for the rest of my life: I am the president of the C.I. Club.


Ah Yong
27/08/2006 0223hrs

 

This is an unbashfully disgusting self-promoting advertisement and announcement.

I'm officially running for the presidential position for C.I. Club. WHAT? yesh, you have read correctly. I am running for president. Scary right? yar...

Voting will be on THURS 24th AUGUST from 10:30am to 4:30pm at the CS benches area.

Do come down to vote kay? Pls pls pls. :)

*oh-so-unbashful*,
Yong

 

I need support, and I don't know if I'll have them.

I'm not having no confidence for myself, but I'm just scared.

Will I have them or will i not?

 

Okay, just a sudden random thought.

After "The Store of Memorabilia", maybe the next theatre script I do (if I after gonna do one) will be a slightly more political one. And one sudden thought that came to me after an extremely long chats wif two frens, dealt with the idea of creativity.

Johnny Depp's Jack Sparrow muttered this line after a naval officer could not think of tearing up the corset to let Keira Knightley's drowning character breathe properly in Pirates of the Caribbean: Curse of the Black Pearl: "You probably have not been to Singapore." When he said this, I laughed out loud because I thought it was a political joke about Singaporeans learning creativity through government's effort.

So, anywayz, people have been laughing at Singaporean's government sometimes desperate attempts to change its people, including Singaporeans ourselves. but, hey, it's a bit ironic right? why does Singapore government have to encourage Singaporeans to have creativity anyway? what have we done to encourage the government to force such extreme measures? is the government the total laughing icon in this joke? are we Singaporeans unknowingly laughing at ourselves?

i hate Singapore, but i discovered i hate it because i hate Singaporeans singing the national anthem wrongly and not remembering the actual meaning of the whole song, because i hate Singaporeans laughing ignorantly at themselves, because i hate it when Singaporeans hate everything the government is doing without realizing what they're doing sometimes. i say this not because I'm patriotic, but because I want to be. why shouldn't one hope to be patriotic? i am proud to be a chinese, i am proud to be a hakkian, i am proud to be a gemini, i should really hope to be patriotic one day, and Singapore should be the one before I go somewhere else and discover the place there makes me belong at home more than in Singapore.

*juz-a-lot-going-thru-my-mind*,
Yong

 

"Aiya, me the director say ok la!"

And that was that. My decision to not go for exchange was made. It sounds kind of rushed and un-thought for, but heck, I think I will reduce a lot of paperwork trouble, tho I know I just got myself into a position where I increased the amount of explaining to make.

So now, with that, I've gotten myself into a lot of things.

Full-time directing for hall drama, a possible main committee position in CI Club, the website manager of FUSION radio, and now i'm really reconsidering my decision to take on the publicity of NTU Film Soc. Heck, I really deserve a single room next sem.

No, it's not my desperate attempt at trying to escape from someone. A lot of work just for someone right? so not worth it.

anyway, decision is made, and i cant undo it anymore. all plans done within 2x24=48hrs. i'm amazed at how "efficient" i am... a bit scary too.

i hope for the better, definitely. and i hope i dun regret this decision.

*mmm*,
Yong

 

Remember that a few weeks ago i was complaining abt me coughing away non-stop? Remember that a few days ago i was talking abt me unable to sleep?

All these things just got worse~! Last night was terrible. Something at the Nanyang Auditorium (where I had my Forensic Science lecture) has become a catalyst in my body and had all the virus working full force, until I can feel any muscles in my body. Gah~ At night, I still have my NTU FS screening and SCI Homecoming to go to. Have to hang in there, trying to tell myself, "I'M NOT SICK I'M NOT SICK".

luckily i have azira's car to drive in, bringing things from my hall to the students activity centre. or else i'll know i'll just die walking on the journey.

wisped off to homecoming and wasnt feeling very conscious. everything i'm doing seemed to be part of my subconscious. you know like when you're drunk, but you still know what's going on around u? then everything that you said were just part of your subconsciousness? yar~ i was having that effect last night.

gah, came back to hall (thanks to azira *again* for driving and keat wei for helping me to carry stuff), had to TRY to activate my muscles to tidy my bed (a lot of things on my bed) and hook up my music. took a DAMN QUICK shower and throw myself on the bed. there was a moment where i really want someone to talk to, and even hoped i've got the energy to get myself seated up in front of my lappy to chat on the msn. wellz, a good friend did call, and after whining a while, i did manage to feel slightly better emotionally. den now, it's time to sleep.

*toss*

*turn*

*toss and turn*

GAH~ why can't i go to sleep? wah lao... the imsonia bug shouldn't be at work now! i'm feeling damn damn bad, I NEED TO SLEEP. den i started listening to music (have to pull myself up to click ITUNES and everything), and den i started singing to myself, and DEN i fell asleep.

skipped 201 lecture this morning. first lecture that i skipped this semester, so early in the sch term. this IS bad...

had no energy to wake up, yet not enough sleeping bug in me to push myself back to dreamland. was just lying on the bed for god-knows-how-long.

THEN i started coughing like nobody's business, and had to keep running to the toilet to puke. gah~ i really want to go to the doctor, but den tinking abt how much money that will cause me, and also about the kind of medicine i'll get. gah~ i'm sure he wouldn't give me anything strong. i might as well save up the energy and try to go for tutorial later, which is much more important.

haiz...

bad, this is bad.

ANYWAY, on a side note, shawn how has to show the video i made for shujing. "Poor jack, so poor until have to pick up 1 dollar coin! You want 1 dollar coin? I give you!" *throw* woah and i remember how painful it is for the 1 dollar coin to hit my back. gosh~

so now, the whole cs108 cohort knows i'm a psycho weirdo who plays with penknives, especially after what I did for fright night for SCI (playing with penknives). i DIDN'T expect shawn how to PLAY that video. -_-"' bah~ i much rather prefer he played MY video i made for 108. urgh~

btw, i just want to make a DISCLAIMER: I'm not a psycho, and I don't have a preference for penknives as a toy. AND i don't make tissue box houses anymore, for the last 14 years at least, thank you.

oh wells, i'll just have to get used to all the weird looks from the freshies (and screams across the canteen courtesy of shannon o_o) and all the requests to reenact what i did for fright night (yea, charmaine, i'm talking abt u -_- ).

but honestly, deep down inside, somehow, felt a bit glad that this happened... hmm... hmm hmm~... hmm hur hur~... hur hur har... har HAH HAH~~ Muuuuaaaaahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!

*erhmm* sorry, a Dr-Jekyll-&-Mr-Hyde moment. heh.

*drinking-hot-remedy*,
Yong

 

Actually this is the pros of having me in an OG of an FOC as a cameraman. You have me taking pictures for you, then you'll received a nice photoshoped picture of the OG. wahaha~

Hall 2 FOC was, well expectedly, very tiring. interestingly. Ain't seniors (esp seniors-attached) supposedly should have an easier time? gah~ most prob all the sleepless night doing the SP night video make me a tired OLD man. know i know half of how justin felt during the SCI FOC since i'm dealing wif just 30min of footages whereas he's dealing with like... er... 24 times 5? woah... ok, it's not half... maybe it's just like 1/10000000th.



anyway, it was enjoyable being there. there wasn't any much of an interaction between me and my OG (congo) for the first couple of days, and so i was being known as the guy in the weird bandana who happened to be holding a camera snapping happily away on the first day. oh wells, they did get the weird part right. haha. but the later part of the camp, i came to know them better, and became a figure quite prominent in the OG, which to me is a good thing. that's what these kind of camps are for right? to know ppl? haha~

and yea! i've successfully got ppl to call me Ah Yong! whee~

i had the privilege of being one of the few seniors who brought freshies thru the fright night trail walk. YESH~ i wasn't one of the ghosts, sadly. wahahaa~ ain't i pervertic to WANT to be a ghost? wahaha~ but ya, i accompanied a freshie thru the trail and got tripped many times along the way. gosh~ i even got scared at a point when the trash can toppled over, but most prob because my attention was diverted to guessing whether that particular guy shining the torch at his face is jeffrey or not. wahaha.

it's a good experience of being a cameraman actually. honestly, sometimes it allows me time to get away from the OG, cos i guess i'm juz afraid of running short of topics to chit-chat wif the freshies. haha. i'm such a scaredy cat. but yar, as a senior, there's always this obligation to talk to the freshies, get them warmed up, and put their spirits on the high point all the time. seeing the OG's spirit going down sure is demoralizing for the seniors. VERY demoralizing. and sometimes i juz wish to get away from the OG for a while to take a breather and to replenish my energy before going back and hyping their spirits up.

ok, i'm guilty of the following sin! i really am! 2 days after the camp, and i'm already mixing up my SCI FOC OG ppl wif my hall 2 OG ppl!! gosh. during the recruitment fair, i've happily mistaken one of the SCI FOC freshie as one from my hall! gosh!! and i tink he was just being polite without exposing my crime, but after he left, i REVERANTLY realised what sin i've committed!! OMG! i deserve to die!

damn it. i feel so ah pek forgetting so many things. maybe i shud do a check-up on my physical age or my mental health (if not, how come i can forget things so easily?!).

*depressingly-lim-kopi-ing*,
Yong

 

This is the following that i extracted from someone's blog:

"Hahha NTU damn ulu."

"You go NTU sure your chinese damn kheng. Such a cheena place"

"NUS is vibrant. NTU...hehhehhe"

"NUS orientation has a club night. NTU? You all go coffeeshop ka?"

"You're gonna come home with a China boy!"

"Eh, can intro me to Tammy?" *

"Buy nice clothes for uni? For what? You're going to NTU right?"

"You want to find lelaki in NTU? Er... tak yah introduce ok? NTU quality..."

"NTU damn ulu la. HHAHAH"

"Oh, so you'll be studying in Chinatown."

"N TiU"

"Mr and Ms NUS sponsored by newurbanmale! NTU's must be sponsored by This Fashion."

seriously these are things that are said abt NTU from so many NUS ppl. gosh... u know when u hear these stuff, u only want to giggle... *kekeke* ops, sorry, giggling right at this moment. actually not giggling at how true they are, but how desperate some ppl are at trying to boost their own ego. (i'm excluding medical and law students from this group of egoistic ppl tho, cos they can afford it) tsk tsk... i'm sure all those weird things abt SMU are also come up by the same ppl, cos NTU ppl really dun give a damn. cool~!

not that i FULLY support NTU all the way la. i tell u, the administration here sucks, like how they demolish certain things without coming up with another plan first? they have to scrape off points system and then now they having trouble. stupid ppl at the admin.

but when they have their good points too la, like, PHEW, luckily we do not have the stupid and pointless bidding system (altho we do have the fastest-fingers-first, cue finger gymnastic lessons~! i prefer fff than bidding tho.).

well, dun wanna say too much, cos i dun wanna be slammed, which i probably will be already.

*giggling*,
Yong

PS. hey, i'm not saying ALL students of *erhmm* are, well, like i described la. but if u happen to mention stuff like that in your stupid hall/school cheers before, or have rolled your eyes at NTU students before, shaddap and admit it, you're egoistic.

PS2. yesh, i kena "rolled eyes" MANY times before, when i said i was from NTU.

 

Gah~ My biological clock is like totally toppled once again with school term starting. i dun even know if it's some biological syndrome or something. I swore i got it back on track just before hall camp, now it's done for, it's still set at GO TO SLEEP AT 12NOON and WAKE UP AT 8PM, and NOT SLEEP FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT. damn it. i shall play penknives for fun for the rest of the night. *kidding*

hall camp was damn tiring, but den, it's not called the SHIONG CAMP for nothin' anyway, juz didnt realise it will apply to seniors as well. ba-ka! i'm still recovering from the lack of sleep, and yet i cant sleep. insomnia (yesh! i finally got that right... no more amnesia) is hitting me right now, and i cant sleep, no matter how tired (and aching too) my body is.

sleep, ah yong, SLEEP!!!!!!

*mindless-rambling*,
Yong