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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

 

I'm A Freak!!

 

i juz came back from LT19, finished the quiz to my CS101 Introduction to Comm Studies. Which... started... half an hour ago.

and yes, i'm blogging from my hall room. and yes, i walked back from the LT... WHAT? YOU COMPLETED THE QUIZ IN 15 MIN??? how many questions were there? 40. HAR?! YOU'RE A FREAK MAN!

and yar~ oh my goodness... what was i doing? i was the first one to hand in, and shit la~ it felt damn bad. it's either bad or very bad.

but vivien wanted me to hand in liao. :( what to do?

what was i doing arh? i jus whisked thru all the qns, and tried to double check thru the answers. and i was lazy to do a second round of checking, so i sat there staring at the ceiling and enjoying air con when i discovered vivien staring at me. i looked at her, and she motioned asking if i had completed, and weirdly, i actually answered yesh. and she motioned me to hand up. ARGH~ but but... dun noe la... the whole lecture theatre of students were staring at me. ARGH~ damn! if i do badly den die liao.

but den again, those i cannot do, mean i really cannot do lor. no matter how long i sat there also wun know one ma. i might as well leave and enjoy my free time right?

BUT THE WHOLE LECTURE THEATRE OF PPL STARING AT ME? oh gosh~ hope i dun do too badly. *pray*

*i'm-a-freak*,
Johnzzon

 

Monday, August 29, 2005

 

A Freaking Update of My Life

 

okiez, in case u're wondering why it's taking so long for me to update things, it's not really becos i have nothing to write, but rather, the network i'm logged into in the hall is freakin' bad, and that i can't even load the main page of the bloggers sometimes. and because of that, i'm like, heck la *click close button*

~I'm still so hooked on Doraemon~

in an effort to make my room much more cosy, i brought in quite an amount of things. which includes...

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...My Mat...

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...and My Pens Holder!

haha~ no wonder my roomie is complaining. guess i'm like brainwashing him or something. but heck, it's already to a less degree already. i could hav brought in my doraemon bedsheet, my doraemon decors and perhaps my whole doraemon manga collection.

wait, it is worst. cos i hav...

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Doraemon Mooncakes!!

FREAK ALERT! muahahah~

~I'm writing much more than anything i've written in my life~

Zhang Zhengyong, writing ENGLISH research reports? you must be kidding. how can someone like him churn out 4-5 pages of words? even if he does, it is gonna be so incoherent.

but yesh! i'm really trying very hard on my essays. and amazingly, i managed to vomit out enuf stuff and details to impress during two of my presentations oredi. i was damn amazed? but it was damn hard work la.

juz the previous morning night, i had to come out with a very complete speech for my CS102 (Intro to Journalism and Publishing) module. because someone told me he failed his presentation in his sms, i panicked and did a lot of finding-outs. so, i laid out lots of newspaper on my bed and was like swimming in a sea of papers as i tried desperately to make my presentation as complete as possible.

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i fell asleep in front of my comp at 5am without completing my speech, and only woke up at 9:30am (one hour before my tut and my presentation). wa lao~ i rushed thru the rest of my speech and managed to turn up for the tutorial only 5 mins late. amazingly, prof k k chang praised my group! wow~ i was so happy! but in return, er, k k chang now knows me as the guy who is "always the last, both for lesson and on the name list". darn.

~I hate NTU libraries~

now, i'm working on a lit review for k k chang as well. ok, this is gonna be my first official complain about NTU. I HATE NTU'S BLARDY LIBRARY SYSTEM!!

i went to the main library, Lee Wee Nam library (from now on, termed as nam nam lib) in search of books on journalism objectivity. i search the opac, and i see the books are with call numbers PN4888#### and are at L2OPENSHLF.

being the first timer at the library, i assumed that meant level 2 open shelf books. so, i strolled down to level 2 (down, because the main entrance is at level 3. dun ask. it's very confusing) and *eh?* i cannot find. i found a lot of journal articles.

shit, where r the books? den i saw a sign: "The CJK book collection has been shifted to the new iHSS library. books affected are those with call numbers ##, ##, and PN! bingo. i need to go to iHSS library, which is at the other end of NTU (south) (i'm at the north tip). SHIT!

ok, i left the library, tried to take shortcuts to get to the iHSS lib, and found out *horror* CJK means chinese books. WHAT THE *censored*! and so, unhappily, i made my way back to nam nam lib in the light of hope that there's a section i hav yet to search.

reached nam nam library, searched, *still dun hav leh*! i went back to the opac. searched. still it showed L2OPENSHLF as the location. ok, i decided to click on the DETAILS button. *bling* another screen. location: Library 2 Open Shelf. ARGH~~~ *-------------lots of censoring----------------* library 2 is at yet ANOTHER end of NTU... the west end in fact. bo bian lor i made my way down.

ok, library 2 is the OPEN SHELF BOOKS library. now i know. and so i was swimming in the world of journalism books and i need to borrow books. *gasp* now, that's the scary part. i see a piece of paper attached to the back of each book in a very old-school manner. does that mean i hav to approach the counter to borrow the books? or are there machines like those in NLB? quickly i called mu up, and *phew* the system resembles NLB, i jus need my matric card can liao.

so i happily borrowed the books i need, and decided i need some more articles. haiz, so i made my way back to nam nam lib, searched for the articles i want and proceeded to the photocopying counter. *horror*, how come there's so many different machines ONE? i was just standing there doing a Tom Hanks in a "The Terminal" poster as people were rushing about around me. i discovered there were a few actual photocopying machines with the cashcard, so i went to the counter and requested for purchase of a cashcard. *ops* they ran out of cashcards, and they asked me to photocopy on a normal machine and pay by cash. even better i thought.

as i was queuing up to pay for my photocopies, i overheard a conversation, and discovered all the other machines are for the printing services from the computer terminals outside the photocopying room in the library. ooorrrhhh~. now i know.

wa, the library is very messy in NTU. why can't all the things under the same call number be in the same place? blardy hell. i rushed to and fro between three libraries at separate ends of NTU, and all my sis can say is "you can use the exercise". and there are lots of services and things we could do, but how come no directions and signs were given? i'm like a blardy sua ku lor! and no, it doesn't help that i'm a communication studies student.

but at least after today i know. at least know that L2OPENSHLF refers to LIBRARY 2 OPEN SHELF and not LEVEL 2...

fark.

*legs-damn-tired*,
Johnzzon

 

Thursday, August 25, 2005

 

The Day

 

the day had been moody. the sky is overcast, and the weather's humid. haiz, i don't even want to go back to hall at the moment. where am i now? in SCI's comp lab, dun noe doing wut oso.

sent zhengyi off early this morning. it was quite a chaotic and hectic journey, waking up at 4am, rushed to SCI to meet yeokie at 5am, tried to guide the taxi who got lost in NTU, rushing down to sengkang to pick mu up by 6am, reaching changi airpot terminal 2 and tried to locate zhengyi who didn't know three of us were there.

being the stupid me, i know i'll do something, but i resisted so terribly. us singing "Fly Away" to him is just so... well... i don't know how to describe that feeling. it's like, both of us like the song (he was the one who introduced me this song back in our j2 times), and suddenly this song was so fitting for the occasion. it was surreal, and sad at the same time.

as we watched yi walk thru the immigration counters, a feeling of emptiness filled me. four of us, down to three. it felt incomplete, just like losing one of ur limbs, paralysed. for a moment, i even felt our friendship beginning to fall apart, just like the kind of depression a person sinks into when he first realises he loses one of his limbs. yes, i was that frightened.

the trip back to NTU, fortunately, wasn't that solemn. we tried chatting on the taxi, but no one really mentioned yi. that is until mu received the sms yi sent on the plane. "Hey shuai ge and mei nvs! I was really pleasantly surprised to see you chaps appear. Take care ok! I'll be back real soon. I'll be praying every step of e way too."

"even tho yi seems so jian1 qiang2 sometimes, but he has a soft side too." and i agree.

the world didn't stop. i was thrown back into the world immediately, not even allowing me to contemplate or recall the memories. i guess that's why i'm here, allowing myself some time and some words to express myself, to be myself, to free myself.

yi, the three of us will definitely miss you. "Zai4 chong2 feng2 zhi1 ji4, rang4 wo3 men2 de hui2 yi4, xiang4 yuan2 cao3 ji4 xu4 de sheng1 qi3"...

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Zhang Zhengyong
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

 

Unsleepable Nights

 

It's almost 3 am, and i'm still up. No, i'm not suffering from amnesia, but i had to complete my preparation for my 5-7 min prepared speech for my CS106 Speech and Presentation module tutorial tomorrow.

And i'm doing on John Williams. Surprise, surprise~ so predictable of me.

Anyway, had been feeling quite sick. Diarrhea and fever is catching up with me, especially with me continuing the lack of sleep. i've been sleeping like 3-4 am almost every day and had to force myself to wake up 30min before classes, which is like around 8 every morning. i seriously hav to rethink about my lifestyle, but i find myself unable to do anything productive in the empty timeslots in between lessons and immediately after the end of the day for me. i would only find the mood to do things after 11pm every night, or even 1am sometimes. pretty bad right?

yea, secured my role as a secretary in Film Society yesterday! haha~ am so happy, cos i tot it's pretty weird to hand the role into my hands. guess i was quirky enough during the interview for them to select me. HA!

the pace of things are really starting to fasten, and i'm really like going with the flow of it, although i shud be really working on controlling my speed in this fasting-flowing lifestyle. chronicles photographer, nfs secretary, hall prod, sch life with 5 separate modules. get a hang of urself johnson!!

and i'm still working on my speech now. HECK~ WHAT AM I EVEN DOING BLOGGING? no la~ i've gotten the whole ultra long script out, and now i'm just starting to sift out the point forms to bring with me tomorrow.

and did i say how much i hate the CS106 module?

*shake head*,
Johnzzon

 

Sunday, August 07, 2005

 

My Second Post in... er... An Hour

 

haha~ no la~ u hav to know how i function when i blog. normally, if i wanted to create a blog entry, i wouldn't visit my blogsite at all, and will go straight to the address bar in IE and type "www.blogger.com", which will bring me to my blogspot control panel, where i'll immediately click "New Post" and start blogging my things down. and so, if u're wondering why i din address most ppl in my blog entries after they posted messages in my tagboard, haha~ not because i "bo hiew" (ignore) u all, but because i never read them before i blog. (er, to kerri and rongjun, not really talking abt u two typically la hor? cos some of my other frens complained... haha~)

so! anyway, er... haha... i'm not planning to posts pictures anything soon, unless i hav the mood tmr night back in hall when i'm really bored. keke. if u're waiting to ogle at all the chio bus i've met in NTU, or to see how happy i am in my NTU life, well, i guess u hav to wait a little while before i select some photos from my massive photo collection. er, i tink i took up to 1000 photos ever since july and it's pretty scary. but, hey, that's the wonder of digital cameras right? to take pictures without worrying about developing fees. HA!

so, yesh yesh, please dun reprimand me anymore for ignoring ur tagboard messages? so sorry! so sorry!

*pleadingly*,
Johnzzon

 

 

Empty Chairs and Empty Tables

 

空荡荡的房间
却充溢着你给的谎言
桌灯无情地照着我的脸
将事实面对一遍

张正勇“317个谎言”



Finally came back home from hall, and when i stepped into my room, the emptiness suddenly struck me. It used to be a messy room full of cables and wires and books, but my table top's clean and tidy, not a single thing is out of place. it depresses me actually, almost feeling like i'm entering a hotel room. have i really distanced myself from home that much? in a sudden surge of feelings, i wrote this verse and continued the feeling to complete the song i've been working on. haha~ obviously the love part of the story is fictitious, but the feeling's real. almost too real till it's scary.

I like to think myself as a very homely person, like to be with family and everything, enjoying the life of being a son. but now, this idea of myself seems very, well, ironic with me spending most of my time in hall. yet, at the same time, i feel my relationship with my parents is becoming slightly better due to less contact and most prob resulting in less friction. not necessary a bad thing, but the sight of an empty lifeless room saddens me.

anyway, decided to give in to temptations of buying a PowerBook, so i approached my dad and weirdly, he agreed to get it too. got a shock. tot he will say 'no' liao. haha~ but my appointment's on 2 September. gosh~ that's still a very long time to wait for a new laptop. and my hand's are damn itching to hold a macintosh laptop~!!

*itch-itch*,
Johnzzon

[updated at 2:03am] PS. I jus realized my Harry Potter book will be in my hands at the end of the month too. OOO~ a new book in one hand and a new stylish laptop in another. how cool can it get? haha~ perhaps i should learn skates and get a pair of them to travel in NTU as well... ok, i'm juz nuts.

 

Friday, August 05, 2005

 

A Busy Week

 

It's the second week of school and finally the feeling of needing to attend classes sink in. The walk from one place to another in NTU was initially very horrible and the whole lecture theatre of us almost got lost somewhere in between the spines on monday and was terribly late for our lectures. yesh, the whole LT of us, and that's 90 ppl.

anyway, the feeling of going tutorial wasn't very great, especially since each tutorial group consists of different ppl, and there were frequenct reoccurence of faces, like J-En, Junjie, Kangli. am quite separated from the rest of my OG group, and i worry i might jus distance myself from them. hopefully not.

well, am still adjusting to the timetable which consists of lectures ending at 6:30pm everyday except on thursday. i remembered the times in SAF band when a mere 5 min late dismissal from the usual 5:15pm one wud spark a very great argument between the NSF and the regulars, now i jus hav to live with the 6:30pm one tho. but weekend symdrome starts settling in today (ie thurs) cos my thurs and fris are so slack, which may not necessary be a good thing.

gave the whole recording system a test today and it worked perfectly fine! the quality of the recording's terribly much better with the samson mic. gosh~ many (or infinite) thanks to beldin for trusting me and lending me the equipment!!

juz came back from boozing, and i'm feeling a bit tipsy. a bit drowsy at the same time. i really feel like walking all the way out to 7-eleven, but will be alone. no, i'm not scared, it's jus a bit pathetic to be walking alone. haiz.

shd i go to sleep? dun noe. :( juz know i wan to wake up early tomolo to wash my clothes. there are terrible ppl in hall that leaves their clothes in the washing machine to wash and walk away. and they wouldn't bother to come check if the washing machine has finished washing the clothes. so when it did, the clothes are left inside the machine and if anyone wans to use them, bo bian cannot use. WHAT? take their clothes out? sorry lor~ i don't wan to touch their underwears...

ohya, zhengyi n yeok will be coming over tomolo night, need to tidy up my room. it's really in a mess now. it used to be...

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... this, neat and tidy and clean. but now, it's just...

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... like this. terrible hor? paiseh la, i'm really tired to do anything. anyway, i dun feel comfortable with the current arrangement of furniture. might be shifting stuff here and there. so, i din bother to tidy up. tomorrow morning tomorrow morning.

am becoming ultra bitchy these days, not a good sign. but it might show that i've become more cheerful and comfortable back in studying life. nah, shant think too much.

anyway NTU peeps, CS will be performing at canteen B tomorrow (5th Aug) from 11:30am to 3:30pm. do come down and hear us! (me and my og will be performing)

*hee-hee-hee*,
Johnzzon

 

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

 

A 2.5 Hour Long Tutorial...

 

Ok, i'm now in the Mac Lab 3 in the SCI building for my first CS108 tutorial to learn macintosh. it totally didn't feel like a university module tho... anyway, now we're learning Photoshop. what the heck? oh wells, i did something to my face... look at this!

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*bored*,
Johnzzon